Anonymous asked: I'm so sorry that you've been having a hard time :( it sounds like you have an awful lot on your plate. Hope things settle down and cheer up for you sooooon <3

Thank you. I see a bit of progress at this moment. Here we have neighbourhood teams that give mental health care at home or at a location nearby. I met 2 people work in such a neighbourhood team who know someone who works in my neighbourhood. They agreed to give my phonenumber to her so I can have an appointment to see if it’s the right kind of care for me. 

Meanwhile my psychologist is trying to manipulate me so I will stay, but I won’t fall for that. He says that if I screw up I get send back to him. And more stupid arguments that I will lose people and certain elements of the ‘care’ I have right now. Elements that I won’t miss like someone that helps me at home. But she only has 1 hour to do so including travelingtime. So at most she is here f or only 20 minutes wich is too short to properly do things.

Anonymous asked: I hope you feel better soon, and that your feelings of running around, not being able to relax or sit down come to an end. I'm sending you good thoughts and wishes.

Thank you very much. I hope so too.

Anonymous asked: where are you??/ why have you stopped posting?

Well, I didn’t mean to stop posting but ever since I moved to my own home my life is a rollercoaster. At this moment I’m in the process of stopping my therapy because my psychologist is not telling me the whole truth about things and he can’t understand that he is breaking me down instead of helping me. After 9 years I’m done with it. I just want good help and straight anwsers. 

I still want to continue but I have a Tornado inside my head. I can’t find the quiet place to zone out and search for quotes for like an hour. I keep running arround doing my housekeeping, grocery shopping, therapy (for now) and my volunteerwork. And inbetween I had very rough times in wich I was admitted to the mental hospital.

I didn’t forget about all you guys & girls. And I feel sad that I couldn’t keep it up, but it’s still on my I need to pick this up ag ain list. 
Much Love,
Suzanne